Eye of the storm

Now that my Econ final presentation is over and done with today, I find myself in a hiatus before the storm hits again. This Fri, I will receive my take home final for Diff Eq, due the 11th, and right now I'm trying my best not to think abt the Stats presentation next Tues, that i have to read a very irksome 33 page paper for, full of theorems and pesky li'l Math details. Ah well, as they say SUCK IT UP BITCH!!!!!!!!!!!
Even though I have two finals, 2 papers, and 1 more presentation to get thru before the blissful end, I find, I'm not stressed. I have a feeling of deja vu...been there, done that. I just hope this euphoria lasts for two weeks.
On to some better news: I have been asked by my Diff Eq prof, to work with him the whole of next year a.k.a. a job after I graduate in the Dec!!!
I also treated myself to an MP3 player. Specs: Creative Zen Micro 5 GB MP3 Player Silver. The little baby should be here by Fri. Can't wait to meet you sweetheart!!

Whine block

I didn't believe I would get one of these. They are just so much worse than a simple writer's block. Then you can whine, and with a lil luck get over it. But what do u with one of these?

How the heck do you...

make those interesting lil thingmajigs appear on the sides of ur blogpage? I am smart enough to realize that you add something to the template, but after having banged my head against the proverbial wall for abt half hr, I am ready to face the fact that moi is not smart enought to figure this out. Surprise, surprise :D
I am ofcourse interested in these things now because they provide me with the perfect excuse to procrastinate! I can (very nicely) justify time spent this way, as I'm learining a "new skill", namely writing java code.
Do I sound like I know wat I'm talking abt?

I'm busy

don't have time to right nething else.

blah blah blah

that's all i seem to be hearing nowadays. sometimes, it gets really loud. then ill just sit in my room, staring at nothing, doing nothing. then it gets REALLY loud, with the unfinished work adding to the cacaphony.
other times, its a blessing.

ah desi music....

after soooo long i thought of listening to my fav oldie (sorta) desi songs. junoon's khwaab, neend aati nahin, khudi, junaid's yeh shaam, samjhana, to name just a few. i miss home!!

That's what I call putting things in perpective...

In the long run, we're all dead.
-John Maynard Keynes

In the final stretch....or darn near it!!

Ladies and Gentlemen, this is the Captain speaking. At this point in the semester, I would like to remind you that we have now entered the final 4 weeks. I have turned on the 'fasten seatbelt' sign a.k.a stock up on caffeine, say goodbye to regular sleep and eating patterns, pack your bags in readiness for the move to the library (once 24/7 commences), and generally get ready to go out of your mind. I would also like to remind u that all your professors are 100% behind you, showing their support by giving you midterms so near finals, extra HW and readings, and generally thinking that their's is the only class you're taking, and that you also don't have a social life of your own. Also, in the interest of public hygiene, it is requested of all passengers, to visit the bathroom atleat once a day, during which it is strongly recommended that you brush your teeth (if not floss and/or gargle with mouthwash), AND TAKE A SHOWER. Furthermore, please keep abreast of your laundry, so that you do not run out of clean underwear and are not forced to dig through the dirty clothes laundry basket.
Once again we thankyou for choosing Mt Holyoke College as your college, and hope that you will donate money (very) generously (or we will hound you till you do) once you've (finally) graduated. Also remember us, when choosing a college for your daughter (when you have one, and hopefully you will have put your degree from here to good use, or have atleast been smart enough to marry well, and will pay full tuition).
We wish you a very stressful 4 weeks.

It's all good!!!!!!!!!!

None down, 6 to go

This paper is due on Tues at 11am, and I cant seem to concentrate enough to sit down and get started. I've only a written a very crappy intro to the paper, which will prob be edited out completely, so really I've written exactly nada! I think the closer I am coming to the end of the semester, the less I can concentrate on the work. Maybe all that talk of shaadi has screwed me up. Maybe there is an imp in the back of my mind that is insidiously whispering: Why strive? Why work hard, when you will most prob be doing haandi chula (or very much on your way in that direction) this time next year? What use is getting a BA in Economics and Mathematics and getting admitted to one of the top grad schools in the country (I can only hope!!) when you wont be doing nething with it?
I have to admit, I might be weakening. It is very tempting to give this all up, go home, have my mum find me a nice pakistani boy, get married and have babies.
BUT WAT ABT MY DREAMS!!!!!!!!????????? Granted Ive realized all of them and more! But the more I do, there is a whole lot more that I want! Now I am dreaming of getting a PhD from Carnegie Mellon, and becoming the premier Econometrician in Pakistan. And ofcourse there has always been that li'l something in me that wants to be the first female Finance Minister of Pakistan. Unrealistic?? Definitely! But so was me thinking I could come to the US and study at one of the top liberal arts colleges in the country!!!!!
Phew! This was intense!