None down, 6 to go

This paper is due on Tues at 11am, and I cant seem to concentrate enough to sit down and get started. I've only a written a very crappy intro to the paper, which will prob be edited out completely, so really I've written exactly nada! I think the closer I am coming to the end of the semester, the less I can concentrate on the work. Maybe all that talk of shaadi has screwed me up. Maybe there is an imp in the back of my mind that is insidiously whispering: Why strive? Why work hard, when you will most prob be doing haandi chula (or very much on your way in that direction) this time next year? What use is getting a BA in Economics and Mathematics and getting admitted to one of the top grad schools in the country (I can only hope!!) when you wont be doing nething with it?
I have to admit, I might be weakening. It is very tempting to give this all up, go home, have my mum find me a nice pakistani boy, get married and have babies.
BUT WAT ABT MY DREAMS!!!!!!!!????????? Granted Ive realized all of them and more! But the more I do, there is a whole lot more that I want! Now I am dreaming of getting a PhD from Carnegie Mellon, and becoming the premier Econometrician in Pakistan. And ofcourse there has always been that li'l something in me that wants to be the first female Finance Minister of Pakistan. Unrealistic?? Definitely! But so was me thinking I could come to the US and study at one of the top liberal arts colleges in the country!!!!!
Phew! This was intense!